Invite Jesus into your mess
Some days having three babies is easier than other days. Some days everyone does what they are supposed to and it goes smoothly and all is well. But there are other days when it just isn’t happening. Today was one of those days. Just to give you a little glimpse into what I mean let me paint the picture….
Set the scene
My oldest is 4 going on 16. She is a nurturing, smart, and stubborn little thing and I know God is going to use her in big ways for the Kingdom. Well today she decided that instead of coming inside to pee pee in the potty (as I typed that it occurred to me that only moms talk that way) she decided to brave the wilderness and go in the grass. Okay, not so bad, right? Well, she got more than she bargained for and came running inside to tell me that she had, in fact, pooped in our yard. So I calmly told her that was gross and proceeded to help clean it up. By the time we had that under control my middle child, Beau who is wild and loves fiercely, decided he needed to poop in the yard like his sister. I was able to convince him that we should go in the potty only after he got me to compromise that the potty should be in the yard. The whole time this is going on the baby, Will, who is going to break his first tooth any day now, was crying and gnawing on my hair, I still hadn’t put a shirt on from working out earlier (so I’de been running around the backyard in my sports bra- Tennessee class for ya) the fridge and freezer were both open from me attempting to put the groceries away, and I received a text that was requiring me to get my computer and look something up.... Sigh
God has been doing some big things in my heart this summer. I believe it is a direct effect of my husband growing and maturing into his role as our spiritual leader. He is an amazing man and he has been challenging me and helping me grow for the last decade. I am so grateful to be married to such a wonderful and Godly man and over the past few months God has grown him. The trickle effect for our entire family has been, and continues to be beautiful (but not always easy). Because of this growth God has shown me the areas where I can grow as well. I’ve already said, but I’ll say it again. I am a type A, controller who struggles with pride. So the scene mentioned above has the potential to send me into a frenzy. But as all the things were happening around me today I realized the difference in my reaction.
Show up and ask
You see earlier today I met with Jesus. It wasn’t fancy and it didn’t look like the picture you post to insta where you coffee is hot, your bible is open, and no one is pooping in the grass. It looked like me on the floor with my bible open, baby doing tummy time, a poopy diaper (can you actually talk about poop this much in one blog?), my bowl of green beans (yes I ate green beans for breakfast- thank you Fast Metabolism Diet), and my yoga mat that never got put away yesterday. Oh yeah and I didn’t have a bra on. Friends, that’s the difference (not the bra part, but the effort). Because I rose and wrote God’s promises to me and Jesus on my heart, I just didn’t react the way I would if it was just Hannah. Hannah + Jesus is so much better. As the day progressed and turned into the beautiful mess of a morning that it was, the holy spirit intervened. God is always there and wants to be in the mess with us, but we have to show up and ask him to.
Kite on a string
For the past few weeks I have been praying this scripture over the kids at bedtime and it’s a ritual that I have grown to love. “You have been set free from sin and have become a servant of righteousness” (Romans 6:18). I love the explantation of this verse in the sidenotes of my bible. Essentially it says that we are all a slave or servant to something. Whatever we give our strength to and draw our strength from, we serve. With the grace of God we live, but apart from him sin rules us. The image it uses is a kite on a string, the kite flies and does what it was created to, but only when attached to the string. I love that image, and it’s stuck with me. My greatest desire is to be a kite flying with the wind in my face, attached to God. Remembering that he provides the freedom to soar. It is this that helps us to embrace whatever crazy were going to encounter in our day. Let’s set aside time for him and remember that he’s a good good father that “works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”. Romans 8:28. Hallelujah + Amen