Talents and Strengths Part 2
I'm just gonna stay still
It’s okay for me to be fulfilled by being home with these little babies.I’m a firm believer that many women should and can work outside of the home, and I’m a firm believer that other women should and can work inside the home. Neither is better, neither is worse. But God told me to be still, to praise, to worship, and again to just be still, and he spoke this through the lyrics of the song “Defender” by Francesca Battistelli. I’m a type A, go hard, whats next type of gal and this reassurance from our heavenly father was what I needed most at that moment. So I submitted to that and gave myself permission to just be still in this season.
As I sat still God used a speaker’s words to bring me into phase two. She said something along the lines of “we should all use our strengths”. I wrestled with that for a while and came out with what I believe God needed me to take from it. First, God gave me talents, and wants me to use them. “Each of you should use whatever gifts you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms” (1 Peter 4:10). I believe that lots of my talents serve my children and that’s why he has me in this season of being at home with them. But then, he took me a little further and a little deeper and as I allowed him access to my heart, he reminded me of something beautiful. He reminded me that talents is plural and there are many talents he placed inside my spirit when he knit me together in my mother’s womb. Here’s where he really started to challenge me, the talent I felt like he was calling up wasn’t one that felt like a strength to me. So I sat in my chair arguing internally with my Savior who imagined and created every fiber of life on this Earth. He patiently said, "talents are not always seen as strengths to you, but they always are to me and I want you to use them to bring me glory”. Confession, I struggle with pride. Ouch, that hurt but now its out in the open. In my sinful flesh, I like using my talents that feel like strengths and that serve me. But that’s not why God put me on this Earth and it’s something that I have to constantly repent of. 2 Corinthians 12:10 says, “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
I’m right where I need to be to bring God glory, I don’t need to push or force myself anywhere else. He’s written talents on my heart that although they may feel like weaknesses are there and he reminded me that I’m here to glorify him and tell everyone I can about when he sent his Son to Earth to save me from my sins, and then that Son rose again and because I believe in him one day I’ll be reunited in heaven with Him. When I get there I want him to look at me and say well done, you obeyed me, and brought me glory!
So here we are, I feel totally unqualified and my fingers are shaky as I type this on my computer while my three humans nap. But this is what he called me to do. He said, “share your heart and MY redeeming grace and love through writing. Bring me glory, use this talent that feels like a weakness because it’s not about you.” 1 Peter 4:10-11 says, “If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen” My challenge to you is to ask God what talents he has written on your heart, and then be obedient no matter what he speaks because it's all about Him and his glory. Hallelujah and Amen.